Gosh, it's been awhile since I blogged or wrote anything (that was not a thesis). I feel like the first day of high school or college. We've done it before and deep down we know its going to be the same but the anxiety of starting new flutters , not in our stomachs nor in our heart but in the middle of the two. In this case writing something again. I wondered about just writing in my old blog again but reading those entries I feel like I'm a different person now. Not changed in a 'I've had a tragedy' but in a I don't feel that same sense of naiveness that those words previously echoed.
I think what I'm trying to do here and now is to think about the little lessons that life is giving me. I'm a master at not thinking about what I feel and I don't want to stay the same person. I want to grow and I want to think about what I am learning now. I don't know that I'll achieve that but what I know is, I want to write and in 5 years I want to read back to these words and remember what kind of person I was.
Crazy, loud, quiet and sane while trying to figure out what life is trying to tell me!
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